Update...

I have started (within the last couple of months) to have terrible muscle spasms on my right side, especially in my arm. Over the course of many months I have tried four medications, many of which have pretty serious side effects, with no luck. Muscle spasms/tremors remain.

We went to see a new neurologist today, just for another opinion (because the other neurologist basically said we were out of options) and, while being shocked at my medical records, at least gave us some hope in a new medication.

Please join me in prayer that this new medication will work and that there won't be any side effects!! I am so sick of shaking...it effects my balance, coordination...I punch people all the time :) ...I'm just so tired of it (to put it mildly). Thanks ahead of time for the prayers!!

And again, just because I can...

"Even If"

I write this not to say that I won't heal...who knows what the future holds...but even in the midst of the suffering I will still worship Him for who He is.

"Even If" by Kutless

Sometimes all we have to hold on to
Is what we know is true of who You are
So when the heartache hits like a hurricane
That could never change who You are
And we trust in who You are

Even if the healing doesn't come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn't come

Lord we know your ways are not our ways
So we set our faith in who You are
Even though You reign high above us
You tenderly love us
We know Your heart
And we rest in who You are

You're still the Great and Mighty One
We trust You always
You're working all things for our good
We'll sing your praise

You are God and we will bless You
As the Good and Faithful One
You are God and we will bless You
Even if the healing doesn't come
Even if the healing doesn't come

My "First" Mother's Day

Mother's Day...bittersweet...

While it is my first with my child in my arms, it really isn't my first. Last year we had already accepted a referral and were almost on our way to meet our son and the year before that I was pregnant. This year, my baby is in my arms, but that doesn't take away the pain.

I ache for those women that aren't yet mothers but desire to be. I ache for those women that have lost babies. I ache for those women that have lost mothers, grandmothers, etc. I ache for those women who have placed their children for adoption. I ache for those women that don't have good relationships with their mothers. I ache for the children that don't have mother to celebrate with.

Please remember that it is not a joyous day for everyone. Please be careful with your comments. You never know what people may be experiencing.

Eye Surgery Update

Delayed update...eye surgery went well. I still have double vision, but it's much better (the images used to be diagonal and now they are vertical and much closer together). Side note: The doctor even came and prayed with us before surgery. Very impressive, and what a blessing! Therapy at the new place is going well. I finally start OT tomorrow, so now I will be back to doing all three disciplines each week (physical therapy, occupational therapy, and speech therapy). On a happy note, we just booked the condo for Elijah's first trip to the beach in July. We bought him the cutest swimsuit tonight! That's all for now, it's bedtime.