Saturday, November 30, 2013
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Today marks one year since Elijah left the orphanage. Some people call it Gotcha Day, and this might be controversial, but I am not a fan of that terminology. Many children who are adopted already feel stolen, or like they were taken against their will, and this terminology only reinforces those feelings. Anyway, that was a side note, but Elijah has been a Williams for a year!!
The first picture is from the third trip, when they picked him up, and the second and third pictures are recent. :)
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
I've got some lists...
Things I CAN do (that I wasn't able to do on October 16, 2012...not to say that I do them quickly or without adaptation...but I do them):
- breathe on my own
- feed myself
- get in and out of my wheelchair by myself
- wash my face and brush my teeth
- put on my own make-up (except for eyeliner and mascara)
- stay home alone
- stay home alone with Elijah
- dress myself
- make myself coffee
- change diapers (even poopy ones)
- use the microwave to fix E and I meals
- unload and load the dishwasher
- clean up after meals
- shave my own armpits and legs
- use the bathroom
- put on my own earrings
- and more
Things I cannot yet do:
- stand without balance help
- feel my right side
- walk (with a walker) without someone standing by
- get in and out of a car alone
**Everything listed above has drastically improved
- jump, skip, hop, etc
Specific prayer requests for healing:
- for complete feeling to return on the right side
- that my balance will improve facilitating standing and walking
- that these muscle tremors would go away
- tone in my arm, hand, leg and foot would decrease
- pain would decrease
- double vision would go away
- nystagmus would go away
- hearing would improve in right ear
- voice would continue to improve so that I can always be understood...tone, pitch, etc
- that my right hand and shoulder will regain more fine motor skills
- that my right hand will regain complete mobility
- increased coordination
- I'm sure there's more but that's all for now
Me walking last November....I don't have a current one, but just picture a lot less adaptation and assistance. Oh yea, and more weight on me (wheelchairs are not good for the figure)...
Friday, November 15, 2013
Saturday, November 9, 2013
I just wish for a moment of reprieve. What I mean by that is there is just no escape from the effects of the stroke. I can't escape by just watching TV or a movie, my vision (the double vision and nystagmus) is a constant reminder. I can't just go for a run, I can't walk without a walker...I definitely can't run. I can't read a good book or magazine, again, vision. I can't just go take a bath, my balance is terrible so I need help getting in and have to work at staying in a sitting position and not drowning. :) I can't just listen to music, my right arm and foot are in constant pain.
My therapists are always suggesting i do different exercising at home, and while I appreciate that, I can't even just sit and play with my son without feeling guilty that I'm not doing anything towards my recovery.
I say all this not complain, really, as always, I just want to be real.
No escape. Boo.