Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
I came across something I had written down during my morning quiet time a few months ago that I thought I would share. Here are a few of the thoughts that I have had while reflecting on my relationship with the Lord since our miscarriage.
“Qualities of our Heavenly Father that I TRULY understand and have personally experienced since losing our baby…
- The God of Comfort
- Strength Giver
- Only Source of Pure Joy
- Source of our Only Hope
- Giver of Immeasurable Unexplainable Peace
My prayer life has a new passion.
I now have a greater sensitivity to those who have lost a child or may be going through various other hardships. I have been given many opportunities to reach out to friends/acquaintances experiencing hardships and the Lord has allowed me to “comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:4
I have a new excitement and yearning to get to Heaven!
I have learned to TRUST Him….REALLY and TRULY trust Him. I know that He is in control…my faith was tested and continues to be tested but I have learned what it truly means to trust and to rest in His promises.”
It is such an amazing blessing that I have truly been able to experience firsthand how amazing our Heavenly Father is. I grew up in church, I became saved as a young child, and KNOW about His qualities, KNOW what the Bible says but until losing our child I hadn’t personally experienced so much of what I have always read about. My faith has now become personal, not just theoretical. So very cool how God can use anything and everything that we experience for our good and for His glory!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
I FINALLY got my FBI and ABI suitability letter in the mail today!! (This is basically the background clearance from the fingerprinting.) SO happy that it is finally here (only after getting fingerprinted twice and a million and one phone calls). Now all we are waiting on is our CAN (Child Abuse and Neglect) Clearances and we can get started on our Home Study!! One step closer to bringing home our children!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Faith…such a simple concept yet so challenging to live out! One of my Girlfriends in God devotionals said that, “Faith is willing to take risks, embrace the unseen and step away from the safety of the shore. We fear the outcome or don't understand the step God has asked us to take. We are afraid to fail and are more concerned about our "reputation" as a Christian than we are about being obedient to God. As long as the enemy can keep us preoccupied with a selfish perspective, our faith is impotent.”
It doesn’t take faith to do life our way in our timing. It takes faith to give it all to Him and do what He asks of us, even when it’s scary. It took faith for us to stop infertility treatments when we felt like the Lord wanted us to take a step back. My flesh said that that didn’t make sense. My flesh said, we have all of the fertility drugs that we need waiting in the refrigerator, we want a child NOW so let’s continue treatments so that we can get a child NOW. But that is not what the Lord had in store for us right now. And it took faith to believe Him that He is in control and has a plan for our family.
Infertility treatments had become my safety net and it took faith to take a step away from them. I did fear that if we stopped treatments there was a possibility that we would never have a biological child and I didn’t understand why God was calling us to stop them. But that all was my flesh, the enemy trying to take me on my own path and keep me “preoccupied with a selfish perspective”.
I feel so blessed that God gave me the strength to have the faith to trust Him in this because I am so excited about this new path!!
“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1