Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Out of my comfort zone

I am JUMPING out of my comfort zone. I am 1) starting to volunteer at a crisis pregnancy center and, as if that isn't enough, 2) co-leading the 3yo Sunday School class. 

I am SUPER nervous about both things. As in petrified. Both things I have never done before, much less post stroke. I am afraid I won't be able to do things. I am afraid of the unknown. 

It'd be much easier to continue on status quo - but we are called to serve. My service is going to look different, but God will work out the details. I have to constantly remind myself of that. So, please pray as I start these new ventures. I need courage, peace, abilities, creativity...

Saturday, August 6, 2016


"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights." James 1:17

Elijah is an absolute gift from God. Every child is, don't get me wrong, but God knew I would need Elijah. He helps me SO much...and the joy he brings...oh my. He starts kindergarten on the 17th. Man, I'm gonna miss that little boy while he's at school. 

Thursday, July 28, 2016


I had a neurologist appointment in Birmingham (about 3 1/2 hours from home) today. Every time I leave I am just so thankful to God. My neurologist always looks at the scans of my brain right after the stroke and says something to the extent of, "people don't normally live through this." He is always surprised at what all I am doing by myself and (I get the impression) he is not a believer and says that I am an inspiration. 

I can only give God all the credit, and I do to my doctor. How can I be bitter about my situation when I could be dead? God saved my life on October 16, 2012 for a purpose.  Each one of us has a purpose on this earth (if you didn't, you wouldn't be here still). I want to live out my purpose well, what about you?

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Where Was I?

Today, on the Facebook page I monitor for adoptive parents in Alabama, I asked them to share about when their child(ren) was placed with them. It got me thinking about when Elijah was placed with us. I was not even in the same thing country. I was in a rehab hospital. Not exactly how I had envisioned things.  

I had planned to wear Elijah in the Ergo and walk around Moscow as a family. Instead I was was wearing a bib and not walking. Not what I had planned. 

It makes me think of the song "Blessings" by Laura Story. 


We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

This was not what I thought my life would look like. But God knew. He made blessings come out of a mess; putting my priorities in place, my parents moving closer and more time with Elijah to name a few. God allowed it, and doesn't want a hurt to be wasted. 

So, Elijah's placement didn't go as I planned. But it was still planned by the Creator. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016


Just had to share what I was studying in my quiet time. 

James 1:2-4 NIV
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

I will persevere today :)

Tuesday, June 14, 2016


Yesterday was a hard day. I am helping in VBS (Vacation Bible School) this year, Elijah's first year at our church, and it is emotionally hard. I am helping in the babies class (3ish months thru a year) and I am really struggling with not doing what I used to be able to do. I am good entertaining or feeding (well I make a mess, but....) but need help picking up, etc. I can't change the babies positions, feed bottles, stand up with them, bounce...not a lot of the things that used to come second nature. I'm helping in there...just not what I want to be doing. 

So, yesterday was not good. I had to come to grips with the new me. (I do nursery at church occasionally, but that is only for an hour and Elijah & Barry are there to help.) Today was much better. 

I meditated on the scripture from 1 Samuel 16 which says, "The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart .”

I am serving God, He allowed me to be this way...so, I will keep trudging on, even if it doesn't look the way it used to. The Lord sees my heart, and that is what matters. 

Thursday, May 26, 2016


To say I'm excited is an understatement. All my fun new toys that will make life SO much easier came in. I am very independent, and these toys will help me do things that I right now can't do, or are very difficult. We have....

A cutting board with suction cups so it stays in place. It has a grater and slicer. It has a raised edge so you can butter a slice of bread. It also has an adjustable gripper to hold mixing bowls (I need to buy a set with flat bottoms that will work).  

(the things you don't think of when you have 2 working hands. But I can't hold things in place, hold things to pour, etc.)

The pour thing holds a 2 gallon jug so that you can pour with one hand. 

There is an adjustable metal thing that holds your pots and pans while on the stove. 

A gripper to help grip. :)

A mixing bowl in a grippy stand to hold the mixing bowl in place, as well as it snaps in another position to allow you to pour batter one-handed. 

A jar opener that mounts under the counter, allowing you to open jars one-handed. 

A grabber to pull out the oven grate. 

A roll of grippy stuff (like my technical terminology?) to be cut in smaller pieces and used for a variety of uses. 

A rolling hot plate to move hot things. 

And an electric can opener that you can use with one hand. 

While these "toys" won't make things easy in the kitchen by any means, they will significantly help (hopefully, I haven't tried them out yet). I am so excited to get back more independence!!

Long overdue house update

I realized I have updated the Facebook world but not the blogging world on house updates. So, here is the latest!

The front 

The back with complete brick 

The trim (doors, window trim, crown molding, baseboards, etc) is going in!

Thursday, May 12, 2016


During my quiet time I was thinking about "glory"....

Glory- we can bring Him glory, in worship, in our lives - very great praise, honor, distinction

"We should rejoice that every time God is glorified in and through our lives, victory has come about." - James McDonald, Always True 

Glory - the very character of God. From Dictionary.com I found words like beauty, magnificence, extraordinary superb,  brilliant, splendid 

Revelation 21:23 NIV "The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp."

Romans 3:23 NV "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God"

We can't comprehend God's glory this side of Heaven. But oh my goodness one day when we see it in full! 

Monday, April 18, 2016

Anger Management

Elijah and I made these and I am proud. Haha. They are play-doh in a balloon for squeezing for anger management and other things. Sounds simple, but oh my goodness, they were not. The sticky balloon with a small neck. The mushy play-doh. We made a HUGE mess. While we made each balloon I would say I was NEVER going to make another one, that Barry was going to finish. Then once we got that color cleaned up (play-doh goes everywhere, including the floor - think of the wheelchair on the floor with little bits of play-doh...mess) I thought, one more. Sigh. We made 5 in 2.5 hours. But we did it!!

(They feel much cooler then they look.)