Thursday, July 14, 2016
Today, on the Facebook page I monitor for adoptive parents in Alabama, I asked them to share about when their child(ren) was placed with them. It got me thinking about when Elijah was placed with us. I was not even in the same thing country. I was in a rehab hospital. Not exactly how I had envisioned things.
I had planned to wear Elijah in the Ergo and walk around Moscow as a family. Instead I was was wearing a bib and not walking. Not what I had planned.
It makes me think of the song "Blessings" by Laura Story.
This was not what I thought my life would look like. But God knew. He made blessings come out of a mess; putting my priorities in place, my parents moving closer and more time with Elijah to name a few. God allowed it, and doesn't want a hurt to be wasted.
So, Elijah's placement didn't go as I planned. But it was still planned by the Creator.
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Just had to share what I was studying in my quiet time.
James 1:2-4 NIV
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
I will persevere today :)
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
Yesterday was a hard day. I am helping in VBS (Vacation Bible School) this year, Elijah's first year at our church, and it is emotionally hard. I am helping in the babies class (3ish months thru a year) and I am really struggling with not doing what I used to be able to do. I am good entertaining or feeding (well I make a mess, but....) but need help picking up, etc. I can't change the babies positions, feed bottles, stand up with them, bounce...not a lot of the things that used to come second nature. I'm helping in there...just not what I want to be doing.
So, yesterday was not good. I had to come to grips with the new me. (I do nursery at church occasionally, but that is only for an hour and Elijah & Barry are there to help.) Today was much better.
I meditated on the scripture from 1 Samuel 16 which says, "The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart .”
I am serving God, He allowed me to be this way...so, I will keep trudging on, even if it doesn't look the way it used to. The Lord sees my heart, and that is what matters.
Thursday, May 26, 2016
To say I'm excited is an understatement. All my fun new toys that will make life SO much easier came in. I am very independent, and these toys will help me do things that I right now can't do, or are very difficult. We have....
A cutting board with suction cups so it stays in place. It has a grater and slicer. It has a raised edge so you can butter a slice of bread. It also has an adjustable gripper to hold mixing bowls (I need to buy a set with flat bottoms that will work).
(the things you don't think of when you have 2 working hands. But I can't hold things in place, hold things to pour, etc.)
The pour thing holds a 2 gallon jug so that you can pour with one hand.
There is an adjustable metal thing that holds your pots and pans while on the stove.
A gripper to help grip. :)
A mixing bowl in a grippy stand to hold the mixing bowl in place, as well as it snaps in another position to allow you to pour batter one-handed.
A jar opener that mounts under the counter, allowing you to open jars one-handed.
A grabber to pull out the oven grate.
A roll of grippy stuff (like my technical terminology?) to be cut in smaller pieces and used for a variety of uses.
A rolling hot plate to move hot things.
And an electric can opener that you can use with one hand.
While these "toys" won't make things easy in the kitchen by any means, they will significantly help (hopefully, I haven't tried them out yet). I am so excited to get back more independence!!
Thursday, May 12, 2016
During my quiet time I was thinking about "glory"....
Glory- we can bring Him glory, in worship, in our lives - very great praise, honor, distinction
"We should rejoice that every time God is glorified in and through our lives, victory has come about." - James McDonald, Always True
Glory - the very character of God. From Dictionary.com I found words like beauty, magnificence, extraordinary superb, brilliant, splendid
Revelation 21:23 NIV "The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp."
Romans 3:23 NV "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God"
We can't comprehend God's glory this side of Heaven. But oh my goodness one day when we see it in full!
Monday, April 18, 2016
Elijah and I made these and I am proud. Haha. They are play-doh in a balloon for squeezing for anger management and other things. Sounds simple, but oh my goodness, they were not. The sticky balloon with a small neck. The mushy play-doh. We made a HUGE mess. While we made each balloon I would say I was NEVER going to make another one, that Barry was going to finish. Then once we got that color cleaned up (play-doh goes everywhere, including the floor - think of the wheelchair on the floor with little bits of play-doh...mess) I thought, one more. Sigh. We made 5 in 2.5 hours. But we did it!!
(They feel much cooler then they look.)
Friday, March 18, 2016
Hebrews 11:1 NIV
"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."
God is teaching me to trust and believe in His promises even when I cannot see His hand. I still have the headaches. I still have the double vision. At first, I didn't want to mention that because we were praying for different results, but I heard once that it's not my job to worry about God's reputation, that's God's job. My job is to trust.
Trust His Heart by Babbie Mason
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see his plan
When you can't trace his hand
Trust His Heart
That is what I'm called to do. Remember what He's done in the past and have faith that He will work all things for my good. Even headaches and double vision.
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
We went to a one-night marriage retreat with our church this past weekend. I am soo vulnerable at those type of events.
First of all, I have to eat in front of people which I don't like doing. I had to throw all caution to the wind though, and just not worry about it. Conquering fears. :)
Second, there were maybe 50 people there and I was sitting in the middle. The music leader had everyone stand. I, of course, did not, while everyone around me did. I am used to this in church, but not in a smaller, intimate setting. I FEEL (I know it's just my perception) like all eyes were on me. There was even another guy in a wheelchair. Should have made me feel less awkward. It didn't.
Thirdly, a group was playing Corn Hole. I watched while Barry played for a little while but finally gave in to peer pressure and played. I use that term loosely. Playing left handed...that bean bag went every which way. It barely made it halfway. Ha! Oh well. I had fun with friends.
My point, do I have one???, is God is REALLY calling me out of my comfort zone. That's all.
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
I got new glasses with a prism, to attempt correcting my double vision. I still am seeing double, but my ophthalmologist (optometrist?? I think ophthalmologist...don't know the difference...Megan, what are you?) is wanting me to give it a couple of days. Join me in praying that my brain adjusts to the prism and the double vision is corrected!