My "I'm Alive" cake! Yesterday was five years since my stroke, and it was a day of celebration. God saved my life and that is reason to celebrate!! It could have been a sad day, but it wasn't at all. It was "I'm Alive" day!!
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Tuesday, September 19, 2017
I have begun doing a Bible study called The Armor of God. The whole premise is that Satan is going to attack, so put on the Armor of God. Recognizing the devil's schemes is the first step.
Below are my notes from the study, so they don't make complete sense.
Enemy attacks this week:
1. Not having insurance approval for therapy yet, causing me to miss therapy, next month is when I should be walking so I really need the practice. My current therapy is pushing me to walk by October. I feel the pressure now. He attacks me with the feeling that I won't walk again. God would get glory when I walk again (most therapists and doctors believe I'll never walk again). It's already a miracle that I'm here and the enemy doesn't want me to further my testimony
2. There was just a death at work because of a car wreck. Barry decided to ride his motorcycle to work and his phone wouldn't track him the whole way home. He attacks me with anxiety. This is a strong temptation for me. Anxiety/fear is the opposite of trust in God.
3. I found a live baby snake IN my house. I am terrified of snakes. I mean terrified. He attacks me with my fears. He wants to distract me and discourage me.
4. I woke up in the middle of the night with my limbs tingling. The cavernous malformation could bleed again at any time, so I am very sensitive to weird symptoms. The devil attacks me with anxiety. I woke up at 3am and couldn't get back to bed. He was trying to keep me from my morning quiet time, doing my homework.
5. I had this whole thing typed up, pushed save A LOT and it deleted itself. The enemy wants to anger me and discourage me. He doesn't want the message to get out that he is real and "comes to steal, kill and destroy."
The enemy is real people. Arm yourself for his attacks!
Ephesians 6:10-11 "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes."
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Tuesday, July 25, 2017
I had a revelation the other day. I was lying in bed with my boys for a nap. Unable to sleep, I was praying and thinking.
Jesus always gave thanks in anticipation of the miracle. (See Jesus multiplying the fish and loaves in John 6:11 - "Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish." And reviving Lazarus in John 11:41 - "So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, “Father, I thank you that you have heard me."”) He thanked God believing (for some reason I don't have spell check, sorry) that the miracle would occur. (John 11:40 - "Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”")
My revelation...All I can do is bring to the table my best, thank Him for what I have and what is to come and wait in anticipation of the miracle. (I don't mean this in the "name it and claim it" way. I mean specifically about my walking because The Lord has revealed to me through scripture that it will happen.)
Right then, a bird began chirping loudly at our window. I believe it was confirmation from The Lord. As if saying, "Lisa, just bring your best, and I'll do the rest. Believe me."
Thursday, July 6, 2017
I know I've written about this before, but in my Bible study, Proven by Jeannie Allen, she said those words, "it is worth it". I 100% believe that my stroke and the aftermath are worth it.
2 Corinthians 4:17 "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
Sooo much eternal glory has come from my, in light of eternity, light and momentary troubles. Our earthly perspective is so limited, we see only our earthly suffering and ask "why me?" But if we truly, "fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:18)" we will see it has purpose. The suffering can be used for His glory.
I have been able to show how God gives true peace. I have been able to show how God gives true joy. It makes me think of the song by FFH, What It Feels Like. In the chorus it says, "This may not be the road I would choose for me, But it still feels right somehow." It IS worth it!
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Relearning to walk is hard! I have been in this wheelchair for so long that satan is getting in my head and telling me I can't do this. I know God is capable of anything, but it hard to get rid of these thoughts. It's not a purposeful thought, but it's there and it is impacting my walking. When I relax I do so much better, the rest of the time I am tense and stiff.
I've been listening to podcasts from Louie Giglio (sp?) called "Giants Must Fall". In it he talks about the story of David and Goliath. He says that we are not David, slaying our giants with God's help; Jesus is the giant slayer. And He's already slayed the giant! Our giants can be fear, need for acceptance, anger and, in my case, doubt/can't do it attitude/fear of failure. Call it whatever you wish, but my thoughts aren't pretty.
BUT Jesus has already slayed the giant! Lord, help me trust you!!!
Monday, June 19, 2017
Have you heard of PEMF therapy? You lay on a mat that gives off a pulsed electro magnetic field (or something. I don't know how it works). It increases blood flow, gets rid of toxins and allows your body to heal itself. Sounds hokey BUT I have been using one at therapy and I have a tingling in parts of my body on the right side (I normally don't have feeling), I have a decrease in pain and my walking is better. CRAZY. This mat really is working!! Can't make up the sensation on my right side. We bought one so I can use it everyday. (I was going to write more but I have a VERY fussy, disobedient child today. Gotta calm him down.)
Monday, May 1, 2017
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. (Found during my daily quiet time. It was not sought after. So perfect.)
My new therapist (who I have actually therapyized :) with for 4? years) said to give her 6 months and I would be walking (with a cane). At first I called her cocky but I really feel like she could be right. I have felt at peace in the wheelchair but I feel like God could really make this happen now.
No one has ever given me hope or a goal before. Everyone is always impressed with how far I've come, but never gave me a plausible goal of walking again. I always knew that God was capable of allowing me to walk again, but it always seemed far off. It is real now and, man, am I motivated.
Maybe that was her goal, but whatever the case, I am WORKING. I am tired. My muscles are tired. But, honestly, He is giving me the strength I need to keep going. It's pretty cool to experience.
On the flip side, I'm scared. Scared of failing. I need to remember that it's not up to me. I am doing all I can, and the rest is up to God. It's in His fully capable hands.
Sunday, April 23, 2017
Hey everyone! I'm no longer at my old therapy location, I'm somewhere new! The old location SIGNIFICANTLY raised their prices which started me looking at other locations. I had prepaid until august, but was so impressed with the new place, that I wanted to start sooner.
One thing good is that I will be doing therapy again. I had been doing wellness TWICE a week (I was walking on a treadmill with a harness for 30 minutes and then doing abs or weights). At the new place, I will be doing therapy (walker, standing, coordination) THREE times a week.
It's hard to explain, but I feel like things are going to change now. For the longest time I've felt content with things as status quo, but I feel really motivated now. I was motivated before, poor choice of words, but I feel like it's time for change. (And that "change" is in God's timing, not necessarily tomorrow.) I realized that I'm leaning too much on my own strength/knowledge. This is about God's power. I am merely the vessel.
I will miss everyone at SAMC, but am excited to turn over a new leaf.