Monday, November 30, 2015

Beth Moore Quotes

I am listening to "Get Out of That Pit" by Beth Moore and I wanted to share a few quotes that stuck out to me. 

"You are a better person healed, than well." (I LOVE this)

"God entrusted that suffering to you because He trusts you."

"If you belong to Christ, Satan cannot destroy you, he can only make you think you are destroyed."

Tuesday, November 10, 2015


I read the following this morning in "Adopted for Daily Living: A Devotional for Adopting Moms" and it goes along with what I posted about yesterday. 

"God uniquely prepares every single parent to handle what comes through adoption...He absolutely equips you to specifically care for the child He places in your home." (Wendy Willard)
He uniquely prepared me to parent Elijah. Even when I feel like being in a wheelchair, with a gimpy, poor vision, etc. are obstacles to being the kind of parent I want to be.... I have to remember that He has prepared me to be exactly the right parent for Elijah. 

Monday, November 9, 2015

How I've Grown

Remembering what God has done in your life is so important. So,I made a chart to show some of the big struggles I have faced in the past, as well as what God has taught me/how I've grown through them. The bottom shows how God is currently using what I've learned/how He has shaped my personality. (I don't know how to include a file/don't have the time to figure it out so I took screenshots.)

Hopefully you can read it. It really was for my benefit so forgive the grammar or things that are listed more than once. 

It is SO cool how He used each struggle to prepare me for the next. Isaiah 64:8 says, "Yet you, Lord, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand." AMEN

Friday, November 6, 2015

"Sovereign Over Us"

I have posted this before, but wanted to share again...

Sovereign Over Us by Aaron Keyes

There is strength within the sorrow, 
There is beauty in our tears 
You meet us in our mourning, 
With a love that casts out fear 
You are working in our waiting, 
Sanctifying us 
When beyond our understanding, 
You're teaching us to trust 

Your plans are still to prosper, 
You have not forgotten us 
You're with us in the fire and the flood 
Faithful forever, 
Perfect in love 
You are sovereign over us 

You are wisdom unimagined, 
Who could understand your ways 
Reigning high above the heavens, 
Reaching down in endless grace 
You're the Lifter of the lowly, 
Compassionate and kind 
You surround and You uphold me, 
Your promises are my delight 

Even what the enemy means for evil 
You turn it for our good, 
You turn it for our good and for your glory 
Even in the valley You are faithful 
You're working for our good, 
You're working for our good and for your glory

Thursday, November 5, 2015

We have land!

We are starting the building process! We close on a lot the end of this month. We have been meeting with builders and our architect every night (except for Wednesday) this week. Once we close on the land we want to start building ASAP. Yippee! This is really happening!

Friday, October 30, 2015


I was depressed. I was in despair. I was sad. I was mad. I was scared.

I am finally reading the devotional I was a contributor to (Adopted For Daily Life: A Devotional for Adopting Moms - check it out! ). In one chapter the author is talking about depression. Depression is common in adoptive parents for many reasons. It made me think back to the early days and months after the stroke. 

First, we didn't know if I'd even live. And when it looked like I'd live, if we'd be able to get Elijah (the stroke was 4 days after court, during the mandatory 30 day wait to pick him up from the orphanage). I remember the nurses saying "They WERE adopting". "NO that is MY son," I would think. Anyway, how God worked that all out is for another blog. 

Back to my original thoughts, we bought exchangeable plane tickets, hoping I would still go. Then that became apparent that was not going to happen. So, my parents and Barry made the trip while I was still in the hospital. They brought me home the day after they came home with Elijah (after a week in the hospital and a month at rehab). 

I wasn't able to connect with Elijah, because I wasn't able to bathe him, change his diaper, feed him, etc. We did what we could but.... 

Barry was just starting a new job with shift work, I suddenly was having to quit my job, we were having to make modifications to the house, figuring out how to be parents to a child who has spent 21 months in a hospital/orphanage and coping with my MANY obstacles due to the stroke. I went from being very independent to being dependent on Barry or my mom to help me on the toilet, do my makeup - EVERYTHING!

Wow. There were many tears. It was very dark. I wondered if I would ever feel normal again. 

BUT, I can smile now. I can laugh despite being in a wheelchair with crazy vision, not being able to feel my right side, with a gimpy (my right hand), with constant headaches, tremors and high tone. I can enjoy life despite being in constant pain. Why? 

Psalm 40:2-3 NIV
[2] He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. [3] He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.

I take no credit. HE is my deliverer. Wow, He has brought me through the darkest time of my life. HE is the reason I feel like life is "normal" again. HE is the reason I can smile. HE is the reason I can laugh. Praise the Lord!

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

George Mueller

Have you heard of George Mueller? Our pastor has talked about him and then his story (he completely RAN an ENTIRE orphanage on prayer and faith!) was in the Bible Study I'm doing at therapy (while I'm on the treadmill...harnesst in). His story is SO convicting. If we are doing His will, we need to pray BELIEVING. Below is an excerpt from his story.  (

 "The children are dressed and ready for school. But there is no food for them to eat," the housemother of the orphanage informed George Mueller. George asked her to take the 300 children into the dining room and have them sit at the tables. He thanked God for the food and waited. George knew God would provide food for the children as he always did. Within minutes, a baker knocked on the door. "Mr. Mueller," he said, "last night I could not sleep. Somehow I knew that you would need bread this morning. I got up and baked three batches for you. I will bring it in." 

Soon, there was another knock at the door. It was the milkman. His cart had broken down in front of the orphanage. The milk would spoil by the time the wheel was fixed. He asked George if he could use some free milk. George smiled as the milkman brought in ten large cans of milk. It was just enough for the 300 thirsty children

Monday, October 26, 2015


This is awkward to write, but in keeping with my honesty moto...something that people don't think of is bathrooms for people in a wheelchair with a gimpy (my nickname for my right hand). We need family restrooms and they are hard to find! Not every store has one. We have to plan our outings around them because I can't go in just anywhere. Bet you never thought of that, did you? 

Monday, October 19, 2015

Three Years

Friday marked three years since my stroke. THREE YEARS!! Woah! It seems like another lifetime. I look at pictures and it seems like someone else. I have come SO far since that time. God has given me a peace that surpasses all understanding, and three years later, I can genuinely say, I am content. The contentness and peace are not from me! I give ALL credit to The Lord!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015


- I am reminded by so many things lately that life is brief. Jesus is coming. Know where you're going!

- In our "Life Group" (or whatever it's called), we are studying Freedom in Christ. Unloading the dishwasher was discussed - doing everything for His glory, praying as we do it, thanking Him that we have one...I, and I encourage you, to thank Him for the ABILITY to load/unload the dishwasher/do laundry/etc. I went so long NOT being able to do these everyday tasks! It takes me a lot longer to do these tasks, but I CAN! For that, I praise God. 

- We are starting the process of building a house - a place that is actually accessible!! I have been near tears several times thinking of how much easier life wil be. I won't run in to walls or cabinets, I will be able to reach sinks, I will be able to do laundry without almost falling out of my is so exciting!! Yet so expensive. Accessibility stuff for a house (more space, wheelchair bars, one story, electronic door openings) is often more expensive. Not cool. 

- Monday was the three year anniversary that a Russian judge said we could adopt Elijah! Praise the Lord!  Friday is the three year anniversary of my stroke. I am alive!!