Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Thursday, May 21, 2015
I was just thinking last night about how far I've come.
That was me right after the stroke. Man I look rough. :) After the stroke I wasn't able to hold my head up. I had to have head/neck support on my wheelchair for awhile - it was an achievement to go without it. I couldn't speak. I had a catheter. I couldn't move my right side. I couldn't feed myself. Actually, I couldn't eat period and when I finally could, used a bib well after getting home (I was in the hospital/rehab for over a month). I had to have feeding evaluations, was on a liquid diet, etc. The first time they had me sitting up, I thought I was going to pass out. I had to take an ambulance on a stretcher from the hospital to rehab. The nurses gave me sponge baths while I had the catheter, and then I was bathed in the shower, because I couldn't do it myself. I couldn't brush my own teeth or brush my own hair. You get the picture.
Now, while I still can't walk and still struggle with many other things, I am doing pretty much everything. Wow, God is good!
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
I am kind of bummed. We bought this....
The new Apple Watch (why is it not called iWatch?? IPhone, iPod, iPad,i Tunes....) It doesn't work as anticipated. I knew there would be some difficulties but I had hoped....
I have to wear it on my right wrist because to put it on or use it I have to use my non-tone-y, non-shaky, better (not good but better) aim left hand. But this causes problems because instead of making noises it taps you. Great, except I still can't feel my right side, so I can't feel the tap (even turned up all the way).
It is difficult to hold my right wrist still enough to do anything on it. The activity tracker is, of course, not accurate being in a wheelchair.
I had just set unrealistic expectations for it. I can still use some of the features and I'm glad I have one. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, I just feel a little bummed.
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2 NIV)
Monday, May 18, 2015
I love to travel. Shocker. We just came back from Melbourne Beach, visiting Barry's brother. I was just sitting here thinking how thankful I am to still be able to travel. We get a wheelchair accessible room, yes, and there are a few more accommodations, but overall...I'm able to travel and I'm SO thankful for that.
Thursday, May 7, 2015
I just need to brag on my son for a moment. He does laundry without complaining (most of the time). He replaces the toilet paper roll when it's out. He shares his food - even when it's his favorite and last. He picks up trash off the floor not prompted. I could go on and on. (Now we have our share of struggles too. Don't you worry.) I am constantly in awe and thank God CONSTANTLY that in His infinite wisdom He placed us together as a family.
Monday, May 4, 2015
This is going to sound shallow, but one of the things that I'm having the hardest time adjusting to is weight gain. I am up several sizes from what I normally am and it is so disturbing. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I hate "diets" but I need a reboot. So, I am doing Nutrisystem, which is surprisingly good. We'll see....
Friday, May 1, 2015
I don't complain a lot. But these headaches.... Through God's strength I can endure a lot but...these headaches are really getting to me lately. I know God's power is made perfect in our weaknesses but I have to keep reminding myself. They are constant, 24/7. Nothing has helped - chiropractor, home remedies, multiple medications...alright. Pity party over.
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
There is power in prayer, well in the one that hears our prayers. I don't understand everything about it but I know we're commanded to do it and I know it's powerful. I've had several recent prayers answered. They might seem trivial but they're not to me.
The first one, I was trying to zip up a jacket on Elijah (why he wanted a jacket in humid 80 degree weather is beyond me). After many failed attempts I prayed "God, please help me zip this zipper". The very first try after that prayer - I got it. (This situation (the after effects of the stroke) gives me MANY opportunities to pray with Elijah.)
The second would take too much explaining. Just trust me.
The third, real obvious one (there are more less obvious ones), was just this morning. I had a headache different than the ones I normally have and while I don't fear anymore having another stroke, I don't like the idea. So I prayed, through tears, "Lord, please take away this headache...." And guess what?? Headache gone.
Now, I am not suggesting God is a genie in a bottle. There are many times God doesn't appear to answer our prayers and there are many reasons for that. But in those obvious times I can feel Him close to me whispering, "I am here, you need only to trust me."