Our infertility and miscarriage struggles, our adoption journey, parenting, and recovering from a brain stem stroke. I pray God's faithfulness is evident through it all!
Philippians 4:6-7 NIV
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."
God is teaching me to trust and believe in His promises even when I cannot see His hand. I still have the headaches. I still have the double vision. At first, I didn't want to mention that because we were praying for different results, but I heard once that it's not my job to worry about God's reputation, that's God's job. My job is to trust.
Trust His Heart by Babbie Mason
God is too wise to be mistaken God is too good to be unkind So when you don't understand When don't see his plan When you can't trace his hand Trust His Heart
That is what I'm called to do. Remember what He's done in the past and have faith that He will work all things for my good. Even headaches and double vision.
We went to a one-night marriage retreat with our church this past weekend. I am soo vulnerable at those type of events.
First of all, I have to eat in front of people which I don't like doing. I had to throw all caution to the wind though, and just not worry about it. Conquering fears. :)
Second, there were maybe 50 people there and I was sitting in the middle. The music leader had everyone stand. I, of course, did not, while everyone around me did. I am used to this in church, but not in a smaller, intimate setting. I FEEL (I know it's just my perception) like all eyes were on me. There was even another guy in a wheelchair. Should have made me feel less awkward. It didn't.
Thirdly, a group was playing Corn Hole. I watched while Barry played for a little while but finally gave in to peer pressure and played. I use that term loosely. Playing left handed...that bean bag went every which way. It barely made it halfway. Ha! Oh well. I had fun with friends.
My point, do I have one???, is God is REALLY calling me out of my comfort zone. That's all.