Monday, September 23, 2013
Letting go is hard and I honestly don't exactly know how to do it. How do you get over:
-Not packing/buying last minute thing/traveling to Russia for the last time/spending planned family time as a family of three in Russia/leaving the orphanage with my son/not saying goodbye and thank you to his caregivers and our facilitators/flying with him for his first plane ride/not being home with him on his first night at home...
- Maybe never flying again (because of the possibility of the cavernous malformation bleeding again)
-Maybe having only one child - not by choice.
- I could go on and on but won't.
I know that God gives true freedom. I know that God gives true peace. But I also want to be completely honest. This is hard stuff...