Monday, September 23, 2013

Letting Go

Letting go is hard and I honestly don't exactly know how to do it. How do you get over:

-Not packing/buying last minute thing/traveling to Russia for the last time/spending planned family time as a family of three in Russia/leaving the orphanage with my son/not saying goodbye and thank you to his caregivers and our facilitators/flying with him for his first plane ride/not being home with him on his first night at home...

- Maybe never flying again (because of the possibility of the cavernous malformation bleeding again)

-Maybe having only one child - not by choice.  

- I could go on and on but won't. 

I know that God gives true freedom. I know that God gives true peace. But I also want to be completely honest. This is hard stuff...


  1. ((((((LISA))))))))

    For me the waiting is the worst part of life esp when I am trying to do God's will!!!

    That being said I know that when I wait there is a GREAT chance that I am going to be blessed with HIS BEST for me!!!

    Praying for you as you go through the waiting process and that God will show you His best so that the waiting will be that much more worth it!!! :)