Trust

Trust seems to be a common theme in my life these days.  :)  Not only am I living it, but little devotionals and Bible verses keep popping up everywhere about trusting Him.  The living it part…I am currently on my second cycle of birth control pills.  I was put on them last cycle because my lining was too thick and then after being on them for an entire month I go back and find out that I now have a cyst.  Huh?  Confusion at how I formed a cyst while being on birth control pills…because that shouldn’t happen.  Somehow my body went ahead and ovulated even while being on birth control…which makes no sense, especially for a gal that supposedly has problems ovulating.  Weird, weird, weird.  So, I have a cyst and had to go back on birth control (a different kind this time) to help the cyst subside.  Being on birth control while desperately trying to have a child is not my idea of a good time, but guess what…I have to trust Him.  For whatever reason the Lord is allowing this to happen.  If it was His timing that we would start back with fertility treatments and get pregnant this cycle…then it would have happened.  It didn’t happen that way though, so I choose to trust that He has it all worked out. 

I find it strange, and yet not strange at all knowing the peace that the Lord gives, that I am at peace with being on the pill for the second month in a row.  I am SO beyond ready to have a baby in my arms, my baby, but feel incredibly at peace with being “on hold” for now.  God is good.

Following the theme of trust, I found this little tidbit on Alicia’s blog.  It is from a devotional book called “Jesus Calling”. 

"Trust Me enough to let things happen without striving to predict or control them. Relax, and refresh yourself in the Light of My everlasting Love. My Love-Light never dims, yet you are often unaware of My radiant Presence. When you project yourself into the future, rehearsing what you will do or say, you are seeking to be self-sufficient: to be adequate without my help. This is a subtle sin- so common that it usually slips by unnoticed.

The alternative is to live fully in the present, depending on Me each moment. Rather than fearing your inadequacy, rejoice in My abundant supply. Train your mind to seek My help continually, even when you feel competent to handle something yourself. Don't divide your life into things you can do by yourself and things that require My help, Instead, learn to rely on Me in every situation. This discipline will enable you to enjoy life more and to face each day confidently."

TRUST.  He’s got this under control.