I just wish for a moment of reprieve. What I mean by that is there is just no escape from the effects of the stroke. I can't escape by just watching TV or a movie, my vision (the double vision and nystagmus) is a constant reminder. I can't just go for a run, I can't walk without a walker...I definitely can't run. I can't read a good book or magazine, again, vision. I can't just go take a bath, my balance is terrible so I need help getting in and have to work at staying in a sitting position and not drowning. :) I can't just listen to music, my right arm and foot are in constant pain.
My therapists are always suggesting i do different exercising at home, and while I appreciate that, I can't even just sit and play with my son without feeling guilty that I'm not doing anything towards my recovery.
I say all this not complain, really, as always, I just want to be real.
No escape. Boo.
Lisa, you have to be one of the strongest people I've ever known. I've known A LOT of people going through hard times given my occupation, but you are one of the strongest!!! I can't imagine the struggles you've been through and continue to face. We are so grateful to still have you here on Earth as encouragement to us all.
ReplyDeleteWe've been praying for you! More prayers to come toward your recovery
ReplyDeleteIt's great to be honest, I'm really sorry you have to go through this. Praying for you and your precious family:)
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