Blah.

That’s how I feel. Blah.

Now I realize I have only been waiting for our referral call for…4 months and many families have been waiting a TON longer…hello Kat.

However, since our agency had told us to be prepared to possibly travel before the end of 2011, I have been expecting a call sooner rather than later. My heart races every time my phone rings thinking maybe just maybe it’s our agency with our referral. But it never is. Boo. Blah.

Oh lovely, speak of the devil. I just got an email from our agency with some positively wonderful uplifting news. {sarcasm} Russia is now requiring THREE trips with a 30 day waiting period after the 2nd trip.

So, actually, I don’t feel blah I feel pretty icky now. Not only does that extend the process but it adds thousands of dollars onto the overall cost, more time out of the country which is more time missing work (with the 2 trips we were up to 4.5 weeks in Russia, who knows what that will mean now), more time for our child to be left in the baby home…I feel blue.

Why do they make things so hard??? How many families can actually afford three trips financially and taking off work wise?? It makes me so sad that this will now prevent even more families from adopting from Russia. Leaving more children to grow up without families, without hope, without knowing Jesus. My heart feels heavy and I just want to cry. OK, I am crying.