And here are the belly pics…
I had to change tank tops at the 14 week mark as you can see because the white one was no longer fitting. I gained about 10 pounds during this pregnancy, partially because since I was so nauseous all of the time I ate whatever sounded good and of course none of it was sugar buster friendly. My favorites…French fries, bagels with honey walnut cream cheese from Atlanta Bread, and pizza. So the weight was gained…but my Dr. was proud of me! :)
Now however, it makes things a bit difficult because I have 10 pounds of “baby weight” to lose with no baby to show for it. I am still having to wear some maternity pants (the pregnancy look of my belly is gone but there is still extra weight there) and my body has in general just changed shapes on me. I have gone up AT LEAST a full bra size too. All of my clothes are fitting strangely and it is quite difficult to get dressed. I am blessed that I work out of my home so I am able to wear t-shirts and comfy pants a lot of days, but it really is frustrating putting on normal clothes. I need to get back to eating sugar bustersly and I know some of the weight will come back off, but I love food and it makes me feel better when I eat it. Soooo I am having a hard time motivating myself to get back to eating healthily as I continue grieving and comfort eating. Grrr. It’s so not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but the extra weight is just a constant reminder of why the weight is there in the first place and that there is no longer a baby in there.
I will find the motivation to lose this weight, I will find the motivation to lose this weight…
Lisa, it IS a big deal, and there's no reason to discount your feelings (eating for comfort is something I do too), and the extra weight as a reminder can't be easy to manage on a daily basis.
ReplyDeleteAll that to say...go easy on yourself! The Lord is gracious, as should we be with ourselves sometimes.
I honestly never thought I would understand eating for comfort. But as I relfect on my life in the past three months that is exactly what I have been doing. So, just keep eating.... Psalms 45:11 says the KING is enthralled with your beauty. And that is what gets me through it all. No matter what God loves us... and He thinks we are wonderful.
ReplyDeleteI love you so much and I am continually praying for you.
Lisa, thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures. Know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeletelisa, i can't imagine how hard it must be to have that reminder...so crazy and disappointing:( i am continually amazed by your strength and your faith through all of this...God will bless your faithfulness.
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