I heard this song for the first time in the car today and LOVE it! I love it all, but I can especially relate to the “And this may not be the road I would choose for me, but it still feels right somehow." I would NOT have ever chosen to walk through infertility but I know the Lord has His hand on me and I can see all of the good things that have come from it. Sounds crazy but it still feels right somehow.
So this is what if feels like to walk the wilderness
and this is what if feels like to come undone
So this is what if feels like to loose my confidence
unsure of anything or anyone
So this is what if feels like to walk the desert sand
and this is what if feels like to hear my name
and to be scared to death cause I'm all alone
but feel love and peace just the same
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led
So this is what if feels like to just fall apart
to be totally unglued
to find out if I accept my brokenness
I get more of me, I get all of you
If this is what if feels like to be on shaky ground
Careful of every step I take
Realizing as I stop to look around
I look around and see everything a different way
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
and I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led
and this is what if feels like to be led
So this is what if feels like to just walk away
from everything I thought kept me safe
to depend just on you for every meal
and find it's better this way
oh it's better this way
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
like i do right now
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
And this is what if feels like to be led
And this is what if feels like to be led
And this is what if feels like
Check it out on YouTube - “What it Feels Like” by FFH
Great words! And you're right, IF is not a path I would have personally chosen but it is the path God certainly wanted us on and that has been made evident... Just wish we knew for how long.
ReplyDeleteAny updates on the u/s and if you must continue BCP or if the cysts went away???
And I wanted to let you know I've nominated you for a blog award via my blog as your posts are always so inspiring and a gentle reminder when God feels it necessary to give me one. :-)
Hi. I just stumbled upon your blog and am amazed how much we are alike and how similar our stories are. My husband and I tried for eight years to have a baby going through very similar struggles as you are going through (please do NOT let that discourage you), now we have four beautiful little girls. The Lord gave us way more than we could have ever imagined or asked for and we feel very blessed! I know reading stories of how others have overcome the world of infertility is hard and I am not commenting here to make you sad, but I do want you to know that the Lord does hear you, that He understands your pain and that He is still the God that does miracles in spite of our little faith. If you ever want to know our whole story or just need to vent or need advice, feel free to email me at caekoenig at yahoo dot com. So many times, when we were going through our journey, I felt like no one could ever understand what it feels like, but I do know how you feel! And I am determined to never forget so that I can be there to support those that are still going through it. We will be praying for you as you go through these hard times. I know the Lord will make you into a better mommy and daddy because of the struggles you are going through at this very moment!
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