Isaiah 55:8 (NIV) "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD."
This verse keeps popping up everywhere I look. You think God is trying to teach me something? It is a continuous reminder that things here on earth might not be going according to MY plans but they are going according to the LORD’S plans. His thought process is a tad bit different than mine. :) He sees everything that happens on this earth with an eternal perspective and I see it with a right here right now perspective.
When I can take a step back and see all of the good that has come from my infertility (see here) I see that the Lord is indeed working in my life and the lives around me. My relationship with the Lord has grown through this experience and because of that I have become more in tune to the Holy Spirit talking to me. I have had many experiences with God since infertility has touched my life!
It makes me excited to see what else He has in store for me and for those around me that will help accomplish His will. It is going to be really cool when we get to Heaven one day and can see exactly what the Lord was up to. Why He allowed infertility to touch our lives and what all He did through that infertility. Only then will we be able to see a little bit of that eternal perspective that the Lord has. But in the meantime it is such a blessing that He is allowing us to see some of the good that is coming out of infertility. I can see that His ways are definitely better than my ways.
We are going through the Experiencing God study on Sunday nights with our church and it is such a heavy book. By heavy I mean that I think you could read it a million times and the Lord would teach you something new each time. It is really convicting me about turning my eyes away from myself and my circumstances and focusing on what the Lord’s will is and how I can join Him. The book keeps saying we need to stop asking “Lord, what is your will for me?” and instead ask “Lord, what is your will?” This is a hard one because we are so self centered and have a narrow view of the world. We also want to serve the Lord and oftentimes take it into our own hands to find where to serve based on what we want to do. But when we turn our eyes off of ourselves and our will, focus them on the Lord’s will and the Lord’s ways, the Lord will accomplish GREAT things for the Kingdom through us. But we need to do what He wants us to do, not what we think we need to be doing for Him. Does that make sense? I think it again goes back to the above verse…even in service to Him, His ways are not necessarily my ways. I may be trying to accomplish good for the Kingdom, but unless I am doing what He has led me to do, it is useless.