Looks like we will be needing to hold up another finger in our IUI picture this month. There will need to be an IUI #2.
I started having awful back pains the day before yesterday, cramps joined in yesterday and today it was official. I called the RE’s office early this morning and still have not heard anything back. That place is going to be the death of me. As if it is not difficult enough having one more failed cycle, then you add in the pain of these cramps and backs pains, then you add in the million telephone calls between the pharmacy, RE, OBGYN and looking at our calendars trying to work out the medication schedule and procedure schedule for the upcoming cycle. Then you have to rearrange your life a little in order to take all of these calls because you can’t exactly stand in the middle of the grocery store or gym talking about the type of things you have to talk about and you never know when they will call you back. I think infertility could easily be a full time job. Not a very rewarding one though…Anyway, it just makes these days really hard when all you want to do is curl up in a ball and cry but life must go on.
Weird…this is the second time that I have been blogging as my RE’s office calls. It’s like she knows I am blogging about her. :) Last week I had my Progesterone level checked and the Dr. likes to see a level over 15 to confirm ovulation and mine was 13.8. Because of this they are upping my Clomid to 100mg this next cycle. I will go in Friday for an ultrasound to check for cysts and some bloodwork. I will start the 100mg of Clomid on Friday and then have the next Ultrasound on Day 13. That’s the plan for now.
I called the OBGYN after I got off the phone with the RE and as soon as I gave my name to the receptionist she knew exactly who I was (one of the…I guess benefits of doing procedures at the OBGYN, is you are one of the only ones doing an infertility procedure so everyone knows you and knows what you are having done…benefit in that I have been told by several of the staff they are praying for me, drawback being everyone knows my business.) But she asked how I was doing and I knew what she was getting at, so I told her why I was calling and she was so sad for me. Her whole demeanor changed and she kept saying she was so sorry - which I really appreciated but it was more than I could handle. It was really hard keeping it together to schedule all of these upcoming appointments.
I feel like I could really start complaining, and I don’t mean to do that at all so I am going to end things here. It’s just hard to see another cycle come to an end in not a pregnancy…but it means the start of a new cycle meaning new opportunities, right?
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11