Monday, March 22, 2010

Bad weekend…

This past weekend was ROUGH.  Not only was Barry out of town when we got the news of the pregnancy/miscarriage but Saturday morning my body finished having the miscarriage.  I woke up Saturday morning with bad cramping which developed into the absolute worst cramping/lower back pain/nausea/cold sweats that I have ever experienced in my life.  After only about 30 minutes of the pain I called the on call RE because I wanted to make sure this was normal.  I was really close to calling 911 I was in so much pain.  I felt like I was about to pass out and was scared since I was home alone.  The on call doctor said that it was fairly normal to experience that kind of pain and recommended that I take 4 Advil every 4 hours or a prescription pain pill if I had any left over from my laparoscopy.  He told me if the pain didn’t get any better to go to the ER.  I didn’t have any left over prescription pills so I took the Advil and after about an hour and a half started to feel a teeny tiny bit of relief.  The extreme pain lasted for almost 3 1/2 hours though and afterwards I crashed and slept for several more.  It was absolutely awful.  That’s the only way to explain it.

I was relieved when Barry got home that night and we could finally really talk about what happened and process everything.  I went back in for more blood work this morning and the RE nurse is supposed to call me with my levels at some point today.  I am expecting them to go down after what I went through on Saturday, but I really would like to hear from her soon so I can get some closure on this whole experience.  I don’t get why I can have my blood drawn at 8am and it is LATE afternoon before I hear back from my nurse.  Really?  Come on now…

Anyway, I am starting to teach an adoption class for the first time tonight.  In order to adopt from DHR in the state of Alabama families must go through a 10-week course called Group Preparation and Selection.  I have recently been trained to teach this class and it begins tonight.  I have never been excited about teaching it because I really hate public speaking (even though I have to do a ton of it with my job) but I am REALLY not looking forward to it now.  There is just so much going on in my personal life and I have so many emotions/feelings rolling around in my head that I just don’t feel like training a big group of potential adoptive families once a week for 10 weeks for 3 hours each night.  We have to cover issues such as Grief and Loss that I am not excited to be talking about right now too.

I know the Lord will give me the strength to get through the class, but I am so so dreading it…please pray for me as I teach these new families!  Pray that I will teach them what they need to know to make an educated decision about adopting and that I will be able to help them become great adoptive parents that can provide excellent homes for these hurting children from foster care!

Thanks again for all of the sweet comments/emails/phone calls that I have gotten from all of you over the past few days!!  I am so blessed…more on that to come…


  1. I am so sorry to hear your news. We will continue to pray for you and your family! Miscarriage is so hard, both physically and emotionally. I know it doesn't help to hear now, but I do think that all you have gone through will just make you love and appreciate your children so much more in the future. It will happen. (((HUGS))).

  2. Wow, How crazy is it that we are literally going through the same thing at the same time? I'm actually hoping that my body doesn't naturally miscarry before my DNC on Friday, because I have heard how painful and horrible it is. You poor thing! I can't imagine going through that without your hubby by your side!

    It takes a lot of strength to get up and teach about adoption! I'm sure I couldn't do it at this point. With all the raging hormones and emotions, I'd probably break down and cry! But, God won't give you more than you can handle. I bet you that he will teach you and grow you as you teach the other people about grief and parenthood.

    Hang in there! You can do it!!!

  3. I am so sorry Lisa. The Lord has put you on my mind so much over these last few days. I pray He gives you both comfort and strength during this difficult time.

    I will pray especially for tonight, but I was wondering if it would be possible for someone else to step in for you tonight? You have been through an awful lot. After my miscarriage, I really had to take a step back from trying to do so much. Emotionally, I just wasn't able to handle it.


  4. WOW. I have been praying for you in a special way ever since your post about the unexpected beta number. I know that God will give you the strength to accomplish whatever He has for you to do, and I pray He will give you peace when you fear you might not have enough courage to get there (hug)

  5. I am so sorry you went through that! And equally sorry that Barry wasn't home, it's so difficult without your other half!

    Praying for you teaching that class. You are a woman of great strength and you can do it! You may have some new insight to share. Just be yourself and you will do beautifully!

  6. I am so sorry for what you are going through right now. I love you and am praying for you. ~Breanne~

  7. Lisa,
    I'm so sorry. I will be praying about your classes. I know these classes well. We actually took them (called MAP classes in GA) and then found out that because I worked at DFCS it was a conflict of interest to foster/adopt through our agency. Made sense but still frustrating. I am amazed at the timing of you teaching these classes. I know God must have something really amazing planned to have you there in the midst of all this right now. I know you have to be professional and all but I guess you are probably going to be speaking to families/couples who have experienced what you are just gone through the last several months/weeks. I know you can't just totally share your heart and soul but I am going to be praying for God to give you some neat opportunities to share Christ in creative ways through this make connections with people and to relate in ways that will show your heart. And I'm going to be praying for extra strength for you. I know it feels so overwhelming right now and it is overwhelming but I know God will give you the resources to pull through it. Hang in there, my friend.

  8. I'm so sorry, Lisa. You are in my prayers.